No sleeping

It really is after 3am. I've completed my sleep checklist and I'm still just as wide awake as I was at noon. I'm sure it has nothing at all to do with the 32 oz of coffee I drank today. Or the 32 oz of iced tea I had with dinner. Nothing at all.

I'm only worried because I know what the consequences of this night will be over the next few days. Otherwise it's not so bad being awake half the night. I've exercised my brain with word puzzles. Then played solitaire on my ipod while listening to my "To Sleep" playlist, which usually puts me right out. Made the shopping list in my head then imagined the quickest route through the store. Spent some time remembering. Then some time wondering about the future. Went over the worry list and decided there was nothing worth losing sleep over. Or I've already lost too much sleep over them already and don't have the mental stamina to try again. Stopped playing solitaire and listened to my sleepy music again in the dark while lying extremely still. Still no sleep. Not even a yawn. I'm going to have to give in and go take a pill. Which means I'll be a zombie tomorrow morning - but that's probably the case either way at this point.

I have so many amazing things to write about, but I can't seem to find the motivation to type them up. Instead I share with you my absolute lack of ability to do anything constructive this week, even sleep. Here's hoping for a more productive week to come...