It's a brand new year. The days are getting longer. In a few days I will start my final quarter of classes before my preceptorship. Winter break is wrapping up, the kids are getting ready to see their classmates again after an extended vacation, and the snow has melted, hopefully for good.
I haven't blogged in weeks because my crazy life finally caught up with me. Long hours at a job I'm not sure anyone can realistically do, days and days with extended family, snow days, cold days, shopping days, sewing days, cooking days, laundry days - everything but cleaning days. I've had moments of joy with my family, overshadowed by overwhelming despair and gloominess. I've barely seen my friends, which is probably a good thing, since I'm not much fun to be around at the moment. My friends would call me dark and gloomy, and my verbal filters are not cranked up to healthy social levels.
These things are temporary, and this time will pass, as they all do. Just cleaning up the Christmas decorations and rearranging the furniture made me feel better today. Along with a Starbucks espresso truffle, a new wool coat, and a few moments stolen tonight with people who love me even when I'm losing my mind. The days will get longer, the routines will be reinstated, the gloominess will lift. It always does. By next week I'll be too wrapped up in homework to remember to be sad. Then it will be February, and March, with all my favorite things- green grass, sunshine, flowers, and spring break. It seems so far away, but I know it will be here before I know it. Thank God!
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All the amazing things you are doing have taken their toll. Whew! May God give you strength and wisdom, and joy in the small moments of life and relationships. You are a true blessing! I love you and I am privileged to call you friend and sister. God bless you!
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